Wow these last couple of weeks have been nuts for me hence; I have not had time to post one single blog. That for me is super poo because I loving writing my blogs and I love even more that I get feedback from folks all over the place. I think sometimes we spread ourselves just so thin. I certainly have over the last couple of weeks. I posted a little about this on my FB this week but thought that it was just so important to me that I wanted to devote a blog post to it. Do you just over book yourself? Do you ever make more commitments than there are hours in the day? Is it just me? Boy I sure hope not. I know that this amazing like that we live is certainly fact paced and for most there isn’t enough time each day to get all that we need to get done but, I am trying to learn some balance. Brothers and sisters that’s a very hard pill for me to swallow. Balance! As you all know from previous blogs, I don’t like idle time. Each morning I get up early and I hit the ground running. My goal is to get as much done in the waking hours that I have. Well this week I had a little rude awakening or a “come to Jesus meeting” with myself as I like to call it.
Here’s the gist of it. I work so many jobs. Now don’t get me wrong, as I’ve said before, I am not complaining. I’m blessed. I get up every morning between 4:30 and 5 so that I can get a work out in. You know if you don’t take care of your temple, you can’t take care of whAt you need to do during the day. You have to take care of you. I also try to work on my part time business in the morning. In am a consultant for Tastefully Simple. If you haven’t tried it you should. I will explain all about the food products in another blog. I get emails sent out and orders placed in the wee hours of the morning. I am also a part time secretary for a local dental society. These dentists just love that they get emails from me either super early or very late lol. By 8 am I am at my “real” full time office job. My lunch is consumed with finishing up what I have left to do for the dental society. Thankfully I only live about 3 minutes from my office. When 5 pm rolls around I am out the door headed home to do my baking. Yes, I also make cakes, cupcakes, and cookies. Later evenings are filled with cleaning and pricing terms for the booth that my son and I rent at a local antique store. That job is my favortie because I get to spend the time with my son and sweet momma. Sometime after that I pile in to bed lol. Whew! I get tired just reading and typing all of that. So as you see I’m not lazy (I loathe laziness) and I don’t have idle time. However, I am struggling with some balance.
Here’s my rude awakening. Now y’all are gonna find this super weird. No judgement. Earlier this week I woke myself up from a bad dream. A nightmare really. This is coo coo but here it is. I dreamed that I was standing in our living room with my husband and he was so upset. He just kept saying that I had made myself too busy to be a wife. He said that he didn’t know me anymore because all that I did was work and that I no longer had any time for him. I knew I was in a dream because, I truly have the most wonderful, supportive husband. He is my biggest fan when it comes to my many adventures. I even told him in my dream “I know this is a dream so I’m going to wake up”. He kept saying no, you need to understand what I’m saying. Y’all I woke up in tears. I literally woke my husband up and told him about it. Pleading that he not be upset with me not having balance. He of course, said for me not to worry and comforted me. Now I know y’all think that was stupid. But, I don’t. To me it was a sign. Truth is, I am overdoing it. I am not situating my time. Not prioritizing it to whee it should be. I don’t necessarily think I need to stop doing all of my “adventures” but, I do need to find the balance.
Like I said above my husband is super supportive of anything I decide to try to do. I am with him as well. He loves being in a band and I try to support that as much as possible. He also loves his lazy Sundays and I try to stay out of the living room and let him have his rest while he watches his sports. We are a great team but I can’t help but think that the little dream that I had was a sign. Maybe it was the words that he would never say to a me but may actually feel. It made me take a step back and take a long hard look at things. You see, my marriage is one of the most important “adventures” in my life. Along with being a momma, a daughter, a sister, and a child of God. So maybe this was Gods little way of letting me know that I may be neglecting some areas which are more important than my jobs. Since the “nightmare” I have been thinking and praying about what I can do to balance myself to be better well rounded. Beginning this morning the first thing that I put on my schedule is when I will be a wife, momma, sister, daughter and child of God. I also began to schedule important time for myself other than just exercise. My hope is that I won’t feel lesser of a person by doing this.
Lovelies, it’s okay to be busy and to work hard but, what I’m realizing is that it’s NOT okay to neglect yourself, your children, your significant others, your family, or you God. I’m definitely not the expert to give any advise on this matter but, I am trying so hard to do better. With that being said, do any of you find yourself in this situation? If so, what do you do to find your balance? We can all use some tips in this area and I for certain would love to hear your comments. We’re all in this together so let’s help encourage each other and give each other advise. I hope that you all have a wonderful “balanced” Thursday evening! ❤️ Always.